Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Financial Peace University


The Lord answers prayers.  And at times it’s in ways I never expect.

A few years ago my husband and I just couldn’t seem to make ends meet.  Each paycheck would fly through our hands before we could deposit it with a nice size credit card bill trailing behind. I kept praying that the Lord would provide for us financially but each month seemed more expensive than the last.

We weren’t necessarily being frivolous. We didn’t have a huge house, expensive cars or toys.  In fact, we didn’t have much to show for the barrels of money we were burning through. Our income seemed sufficient for our family of 5 but our bank statements continuously told a different story. We had no savings, no retirement fund, no college funds, and no plan for when a car or appliance broke down. I kept thinking that if we just made a little more money, we’d be able to put money aside.

In November of 2009 I reluctantly agreed to host Financial Peace University with my husband at our house. I was not excited.  This was supposed to be a small group from our church digging into God’s Word, not learning how to track our income and expenses. 

The first night I was pleasantly surprised.  Dave Ramsey began to share his plan about how to count each dollar.  He gave frightening statistics about how many Americans are in debt with no plan for their own retirement or kids college funds, much less the inevitable financial emergency. And as the weeks progressed he described how to make a livable budget and how to attack debt with “gazelle intensity.”  Each one hour session ends with real life testimonies of people who have gotten out of mountains of debt and now have thousands in savings and retirement.

None of his ideas are radical or even new.  He teaches an envelope system of saving for the things you want or need.  For instance, if you want to have your piano tuned once a year and it costs $100, you put about $8 in the piano envelope every month. You pay cash for almost everything because it’s more difficult to let go of physical dollars than to mindlessly charge something on a card. Your purchases quickly become planned and well thought out.

Sounds simple.  And really it is.  But I grew up in a family where bank accounts were overflowing and we had enough to feed a family 3x the size of ours.  There was no budgeting.  We saw. We wanted. We bought. And it seemed that no matter how much we purchased, there were no credit card balances following us around.  You can imagine how confused I was after my husband and I got married and had bills of our own.

But now each dollar of our paychecks has a destination.  We only buy what we have budgeted for.  And as geeky as it sounds, I appreciate having to use restraint when it comes to buying extras, like scrapbooking supplies, just so that when our oven breaks down, we actually have money to replace it.

I fully expected the Lord to answer my prayers with bigger paychecks. Of course, that would have meant more money to waste.  But as usual, He had a much better plan. Through Financial Peace University we learned how to honor God with our finances, to pay for our needs, tithe, and even responsibly save for the 

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

The Enemy's Trying To Tear Down Your House


What a difference a year makes.  July 2009 I experienced the worst bout of insomnia I’ve ever had. I’ve always been prone to a rough night of sleep.  My mind runs day and night, never quite able to turn off.  And a few times my body has kept me awake trying to give me a message, like when I was unknowingly pregnant or when I needed to have an important conversation with my husband. 

I’m against sleep medication for myself. I prefer to fix the problem instead of masking the symptoms.  I did everything I could think of to fall asleep.  I tried to unwind an hour before bed.  I installed new blinds to make the room as dark as possible.  I removed the blazing blue clock that continually reminded me how many hours I had not been sleeping.  And my snoring husband was condemned to the couch.  Nothing helped.  Most nights my mind simply couldn’t achieve the sleep my body desperately needed.  It is beyond frustrating when something so simple becomes so complicated.

Weeks of surviving on 1-3 hours of sleep a night left me utterly exhausted and in a zombie state- impossible to take care of 3 rambunctious kids!

One night after unsuccessfully trying to sleep for several hours, I said to the Lord “What on earth is going on?  I constantly harass You with my prayers for sleep. Psalm 127:2 says that You grant sleep to those You love and I know You love me.  Please show me what the problem is!”

Almost immediately I fell into a deep sleep.  I dreamt that in my basement was a man dressed in black.  He was using a miter saw to cut small pieces of wood and a small hammer to hit the cement floor.  The next morning when I remembered the dream, the phrase “the enemy’s trying to tear down your house” came to mind.  As I pondered that it became pretty clear.  The man in black was working hard to be destructive.  Then I realized the tools he had to work with would not be the first choice in a demolition.   But they sure made a lot of noise. 

A few days later my pastor was talking about the authority we have over the enemy in Jesus and how to pray against him.  So I stood up and claimed that authority.  And slept soundly that night.

I can count the number of times I’ve clearly heard the Lord speak to me on one hand- not often. But when He answers prayer, He really answers prayer.  The insomnia improved greatly but He also revealed in the coming weeks some physical problems keeping me from sleep. Adrenal fatigue proved to be the main problem and blood work later confirmed hypothyroidism that I’m working to fix. 

A year later with the help of some amazing supplements and continual prayer, I’m sleeping well.  Occasionally I’ll have a rough night but nothing like last summer.

 I can still feel the enemy trying to tear me down in other ways but at least now I can fight on a full night’s sleep.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Freedom



My pastor was preaching on John chapter 4 where Jesus encounters the Samaritan woman at the well, and what we can learn about Jesus from that passage.  Without going into too much detail, we learn that He was human, that He wants all people to come to Him regardless of gender, religion, or nationality, and that He often exposes sin to reveal a need.

My favorite application from the sermon was that God doesn’t expose sin to shame us.  He exposes sin to bring about freedom.

And that’s what I needed to hear.  The Lord’s been working on my heart, digging up painful experiences and hidden sin that I would have preferred remain buried forever.  Embarrassed and ashamed, I shoved those memories as deep down as I could and time made them faded and almost forgotten.  But even hidden in the depths these traumatic events had a firm grasp on my thoughts and feelings, controlling who I am today.  The Lord tenderly revealed the past I had concealed, and I reluctantly allowed the memories to surface and heal.  Slowly the burden I have carried unknowingly for all these years is becoming lighter

How amazing and precious the Lord is to cultivate and pursue true freedom in each of us. He saw the weight of guilt that I was carrying on my own and He knew it was too much for me to bear.  That Samaritan woman at the well went back to her town and told the people about the man “who told me everything I ever did.”  Today I’m glad that nothing is hidden from God.  And I’m grateful that He accepts me as I am and loves me too much to leave me that way.